Excited and nervous

Yesterday I had my blood test to check the hcg levels to make sure they are still rising.

I have been so nervous. I can’t believe it. I thought once I had a positive pregnancy test I would be just overjoyed until we had our baby/babies. Which of course I am overjoyed, just so nervous. After the second blood test I felt better. But then the embryos heart is supposed to start beating on day 35, I’m on day 41 now. And I was like crap, is that going to happen?!?! Not sure why I am so nervous. I guess it’s normal.

Anyway, yesterday the nurse didn’t call me until like 2:45 in the afternoon with the results. They usually call me around 1. Last week it may have been before noon I think. I was so nervous all day. The results were SO good! Close to 23,000!!! Such great news, again I/we were overjoyed.

I started sharing the news with Jay of course, and my family and I was at work so those closest to me at work. 😍 I finally felt like this is happening and it is so good! What a relief.

That didn’t last very long. Within 15 minutes after the call I went to the bathroom and noticed I had started spotting, it was brown, not red. Ok, I said to myself, this must be normal. And then I started having some cramping (felt like near the ovaries). So I contacted the doctors office. The nurse said the dr was in surgery but he would call me when he was done. He called me around 4:30. He said this is a very normal call, but to be careful. He sent me home and told me not to work for a few days. To rest and drink plenty of fluids. He was going to check my hormone levels to make sure they were ok and get back to me. He gave me his cell number and told me if I had any issues to call or text him ASAP. So of course I went home and rested. Still spotting slightly today. Minimal cramps.

The dr called me back today to check on me and let me know that my hormone levels were perfect. To keep resting and not to worry.

I am taking advantage of the resting while I can. I/we want everything to go as healthy as possible.

Next Wednesday is our first ultrasound. We are so excited and cannot wait to see those little blips on the screen! And if we are lucky we will hear the heartbeat/s. 🤞🥰

Until then…… keep those prayers, well wishes, good karma or whatever and however you can!! We will take it all!! Thank you Thank you Thank you!!! 🥰😘😍😊❤️🤞🙏💕🤰🏼👏🏻

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Update

Numbers are rising steadily. Close to 2000 as of this morning. They told me to continue to take it easy.

Ultrasound is not next week. It will be the week after. Another blood test next Thursday.

According to a pregnancy app, I am 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant today. 🥰

I am definitely experiencing symptoms already. Nauseous, frequently peeing already, constant feeling of something going on in my uterus, lack of appetite, lethargic at night, getting kind of a shaky feeling around 3ish every afternoon and as of yesterday complete exhaustion feeling by 5pm. It seems kind of early for all of these symptoms but if there is two, then it makes sense.

Still praying for a healthy pregnancy!! I’m overwhelmed with the love from everyone!! It has been such an amazing feeling. Thank you !!

Jay is so happy too and enjoying the love! He is excited and taking good care of me! He is going to be a great father!! 🥰

Thank you Thank you Thank you

🙏🥰😘❤️🤰🏼🤞💕👧👦👨‍👩‍👧‍👦😍🌹👏🏻

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The results are in..

Oh my goodness. This past week has been a tough one. I ended up getting acupuncture on Wednesday for my back and it helped so much! I am 98% better!!

Wednesday I also started having some cramps. I felt good about that because I’ve had them here and there since then. But, last time was kind of the same way so I didn’t want to get my hopes up.

The emotions have been all over the place. While I was in so much pain because of my back I couldn’t get to a positive place. It was really hard. I was weepy some days and felt like I could go off at the drop of a dime other days.

The anxiety was really getting to me too. Especially the last couple days. When I would sleep (or try too) I felt my heart racing. I am still on the prednisone, so it only seems bad the days I take those pills.

I stayed true and didn’t take an at home pregnancy test at all. Because if it came out negative, that’s where my mind would wander-to the dark side. I am proud of myself for not buying any to take!

I could barely sleep last night. And I think I made myself nauseous all day anticipating the results. My blood test was at 8:15am this morning. I drove down to Jay (he works an hour and 15 minutes south of our home) so he would be with me when I got the results call from the doctor. Either way, I wanted him to be with me for comfort. We had lunch and waited … and waited …. Finally, the doctor called and told me ……

The test results were excellent!!!! 😂🥰❤️🙏🤰🏼 I am pregnant! And the doctor told me he was expecting the hcg numbers to be around 100/150. They were 800 something. So it is highly likely both embryos implanted. Omg!! 👧👦

I have been waiting to hear those results for over 16 years! Today, was definitely the best news ever! I am so happy I was with Jay so we got to enjoy hearing it together! It really was life changing.

Of course it is still early. So we are very hopeful that all will go well and we will take really good care of me!

We know of all of your thoughts/prayers and positive vibes you sent to us, was an extreme help. We couldn’t have gotten through this experience any better without all of you! I know you all have been patiently waiting for these results just as we were. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts! 😘❤️🥰🙏💕🤰🏼👨‍👩‍👧‍👦

So, this Wednesday I will take another blood test to make sure the numbers are still going up. And then next week we will do an ultrasound and verify one or two sacs! 🥰

If I forgot anything I’m going to blame it on pregnancy brain already! Lol

Love to you all!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Positive vibes

Hello! Waiting sucks, but I’m trying to make the most of it. Actually, my back went out on Saturday so my mind has been elsewhere. I didn’t do anything to make it go out. I thought maybe too much resting caused it. But, it didn’t matter what I did, it hurt. It feels like it seizes up. Mostly after sitting, I’ll try to get up and I can’t. The pain was so bad. I needed help by Saturday night and all day Sunday. Sleeping sucked. Monday I was so bored out of my mind. All the plans I had for my relax and wait days off I couldn’t do because I was miserable.

Today (Tuesday) seemed slightly better. I am still in so much pain and seize up when I rise, but I didn’t need help besides the tables around me.

I called the Dr and he told me to walk for exercise and to just rest. He said I can take a Tylenol here and there and to rest! I tried a Tylenol, lol. Didn’t touch the pain. I am hoping it gets better every day. Everything happens for a reason, I believe, so I’m sure this is to help keep my mind occupied. As not great as the pain is, I guess I’ll take it. 🙁

I haven’t felt any cramping like last time. At least that I know of. The pain from the back has taken over. I was starting to get really worried last night and this morning because I haven’t felt the cramping. But, I’ve decided to believe that just because it doesn’t feel like last time, it isn’t a bad thing. Of course google tells me you could feel things or not feel things. So I won’t worry as much.

I’m definitely not taking any pregnancy tests until after my blood test.

Not sure when I will go back to work, I was supposed to go back today. But, I can’t worry about that right now. I just need to be healthy. This is my last chance and I’m being as careful as I can. Thank God my work is amazing!

Jay and my family have been great. They have been so helpful! Thank god for all of them! My 7 year old niece and 10 year old nephew actually helped me with house work, haha. They were happy to help. I Love them! ❤️

Okay, so I feel like I need double of everything now! No pun intended. 😜 because I need to feel better!!

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Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!

🙏🙏🙏🙏🤞🤞🤞🤞💕💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️❤️

2️⃣ embryos transferred ✔️

Today was a success! 🥰❤️

I felt a calmness over me today. I was not stressing or anything. I was/am and have been super emotional still. Crying over happy stories I hear, lol. I did feel excited and a little nervous a couple of hours beforehand. But once I got my first round of acupuncture I was calm again. I’m sure the diazepam helped 😜 too.

Our appointment was at 1pm. But, I emptied half my bladder when we got to the doctors office. Soooo.. we had to wait an extra 35 minutes until my bladder was full enough again! Whoops🤦‍♀️ I couldn’t help it, I had to go!!! Lol

We transferred both embryos and everything went as planned. Jay and I watched them float into my uterine lining!! 🥰 So cool!

I am resting and taking it easy for the next 5 days.

The doctor did say he has never not had a positive pregnancy after transferring 2 or more embryos. Hopefully they both implant! 🤞🙏❤️

Jay is in take care of me mode, which I am enjoying immensely! 😜🥰

The pregnancy blood test is on Monday, 9/9. That is when we will find out our future! Of course that will feel like eternity! But, we will get through it!! Lol

Ok besides keeping this hurricane away, please send your thoughts and prayers or what ever good luck you can send us, it is so appreciated!!!

Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!!

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The first photo is a gift from a sweet girl at work, which I did wear today!! ❤️ Thank you!!

And the second photo is our (hopefully) soon to be babies! Not sure why they are shaped differently but the doctor said they are both very healthy. The one on the right side has placenta growing on it already. We don’t know which one is the female and which one is the male ?!

Again, we appreciate each and every one of you and know you are waiting with us as well!! We feel the love, believe me!

🥰❤️😘🤞🙏💕👧👦🌹🤰🏼🙏

Getting closer

I went to the doctor for an update this past Friday. I ended up starting the progesterone shots that day. The doctor also increased the estrogen. Today I start antibiotics, tomorrow I am starting prednisone. And Thursday is the transfer day. ❤️🥰😃🤞🙏

I have been trying to rest as much as I can, because I have been kind of tired. I know I have been super moody. Especially since Friday. I feel it when it happens, but, there isn’t much I can do while it’s happening except for, trying to be quiet. So I don’t say the wrong thing, lol.

We are super excited for this transfer. I am trying to take it in because it is the last time we are doing it. I am trying to be as positive as possible, even though it isn’t always easy.

Between Jay and my family, I will have plenty of help so I can truly relax and not do too much after the transfer.

The only thing we need is all of your positive thoughts, prayers and hope for us for this transfer to turn into implantation and a healthy pregnancy!

Thank you in advance!! We love you all.

🙏❤️💕🥰😘🤞🤰🏼🤱👨‍👩‍👧‍👦

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8 more days!!

Next Thursday, August 29th is our embryo transfer day. We are so looking forward to it.

My body is still reacting the same way to the hormones. It feels like something is squeezing my head all day. I have been taking Tylenol, but it doesn’t really help. My head just feels cloudy. The nausea isn’t too bad any more. Still there, but bearable.

I’m still taking the same dosage of estrogen as I was last week. The doctor said my levels are similar to that if someone ovulating. So it doesn’t alarm him with all of my side effects. However, I am seeing him because I don’t have the body of a normal person who is ovulating. I don’t ovulate. So, any and all hormones that someone else would normally make on their own, I don’t! So it is abnormal for me and I am affected by it. Lol. I will start the progesterone shots on Saturday. My lining is looking really good, so that is awesome!

My next appointment with the doctor is Friday. He will tell me what time to start the shots and tell us the time of the transfer and if I have to increase the estrogen.

Right now I am just keeping busy and trying to keep my spirits up as I am dealing with the lovely hormones. I have been super tired lately and have to push myself harder than usual to do my daily routine.

I will keep you all posted! Positive thoughts and/or prayers please!! ❤️🙏🤞💕🌹

Thank you Thank you Thank you

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Hormones!!!!!

Holy moly! I really do forget each month/cycle how much the hormones affect me!!

I’ve had headaches on and off the last week and a half. I’ve been nauseous since I doubled my dose of estrogen on Tuesday. And today I started feeling weepy. I probably cried/teared up like 6 times today. My head feels completely cloudy. It’s tough working while feeling this way. It is kind of overwhelming. But, I know this is worth it and what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.

I had an ultrasound and blood work done this morning. Everything looked good. He started me on the vaginal estrogen twice a day. More estrogen!! Baby making body is happening right now!! 😜

I am really trying not to complain. I am super grateful for this opportunity and we are learning so much through this process.

Last week when I was talking to my doctor about transferring 2 embryos he said he was ok with what ever we decided. Today when he asked me what we decided. I told him 2, and he told me that was aggressive. I was like 🤷‍♀️?!?! I didn’t say anything to him after he said that. But I couldn’t stop thinking about it. So when the nurse called me to let me know what the next steps were, I asked her why he said our choice was aggressive. She told me he only said that because both of the embryos we have left are really healthy so he thinks that we only need to transfer one, because the chance of it implanting is really high. I told her we only have 2 left. She said she knows and it’s fine. Not to worry about it.

I talked to Jay about it. And as always he calmed me down. We are making a conscious decision to try to have twins. We know it will not be easy, but worth it. It will make us so happy to just have a child, and if we get both, we will be even happier!!!!

We are so thankful, as always, for all of you. I was telling a friend today that writing this blog and having all of you as supporters has helped keep me sane. It has helped me be more aware of how I am feeling, and I think it has helped me communicate better with Jay too. Because, when we did the IUI for like 9 months, I just remember feeling like I was getting beat up each month. I became so depressed and I was not open with my feelings with anyone really. It was a struggle.

So, when I say we are so thankful for all of you, I really mean it from my heart!

Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!!!! ❤️😘🙏🤞

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Round 2

Hi! Sorry I have been m.i.a. It has been an emotional couple of weeks for me. I’ve been in my shell in my own world. I’m thinking the hormones from the birth control pill took over. I again felt like my body wanted to get my period (like it was fighting against it) but couldn’t because I was taking the pill. Headaches, all of the ups and downs including sadness and weepiness, happiness and anxiety. I took my last pill Friday night and got my period on Sunday morning. Thank goodness! I finally felt like my body was finally not swollen anymore. It’s crazy how much the hormones do affect me. I’m sure everyone is different.

I had my first ultrasound today to start the next transfer process. They also gave me the results of my ERA biopsy too, which is to transfer the embryo on the same day as we did last time. I have all kinds of feelings about that. But, I am going to stay positive and be happy that was the best day to transfer. I started the estrogen pills today. I start with 1 tablet twice daily and then on the 13th I will double it. My next doctors appointment is next Thursday. Blood work and an ultrasound.

When I checked in to my appointment today they asked me to sign the embryo transfer consent form. Last time I got to fill in how many embryos I wanted to transfer. This time 1 was filled in the box already. I asked if I could change it to 2 and the nurse told me I would have to check with the dr. So, the dr let me know all of the potential risks if we transferred 2 embryos at once. Obviously, a higher risk of twins. He said the rate of pregnancy in their office was over 70% this year already, which is pretty high. He transferred 2 embryos in someone last week and he thinks they both implanted. The risks with multiples are 6% higher chance for cerebral palsy, 6% higher chance of heart defects, and a 6% higher chance of having to have a c-section. Also pre-term birth, etc. But, overall only a 5% chance higher over a single birth.

After coming home and talking to Jay we decided we would rather transfer them both this time. It is a lot on me with all of the medication and emotional ups and downs. I am 41 now, and if there is a good possibility we can have both babies now at once, I would rather do that. Jay agrees.

The transfer date will be at the end of the month. Probably on the 29th or 30th. We will have to see how my body does with the estrogen and building up of the lining and getting it ready for the embryos.

We are so excited. I have a more calm feeling this time than last time. I’m sure it is because I know what to expect. It would be nice if this headache would go away. I haven’t tried soaking my feet like I should… I’ll do that tomorrow if it is still hanging around.

Thank you for your support! It has been kind of quiet the last couple of months. I’m ready for this next chapter! I will keep you updated as best I can. Next week my appointment is on Thursday, so I will probably post on that day.

Thank you Thank you Thank you!!

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