Holy moly! I really do forget each month/cycle how much the hormones affect me!!

I’ve had headaches on and off the last week and a half. I’ve been nauseous since I doubled my dose of estrogen on Tuesday. And today I started feeling weepy. I probably cried/teared up like 6 times today. My head feels completely cloudy. It’s tough working while feeling this way. It is kind of overwhelming. But, I know this is worth it and what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.

I had an ultrasound and blood work done this morning. Everything looked good. He started me on the vaginal estrogen twice a day. More estrogen!! Baby making body is happening right now!! 😜

I am really trying not to complain. I am super grateful for this opportunity and we are learning so much through this process.

Last week when I was talking to my doctor about transferring 2 embryos he said he was ok with what ever we decided. Today when he asked me what we decided. I told him 2, and he told me that was aggressive. I was like 🤷‍♀️?!?! I didn’t say anything to him after he said that. But I couldn’t stop thinking about it. So when the nurse called me to let me know what the next steps were, I asked her why he said our choice was aggressive. She told me he only said that because both of the embryos we have left are really healthy so he thinks that we only need to transfer one, because the chance of it implanting is really high. I told her we only have 2 left. She said she knows and it’s fine. Not to worry about it.

I talked to Jay about it. And as always he calmed me down. We are making a conscious decision to try to have twins. We know it will not be easy, but worth it. It will make us so happy to just have a child, and if we get both, we will be even happier!!!!

We are so thankful, as always, for all of you. I was telling a friend today that writing this blog and having all of you as supporters has helped keep me sane. It has helped me be more aware of how I am feeling, and I think it has helped me communicate better with Jay too. Because, when we did the IUI for like 9 months, I just remember feeling like I was getting beat up each month. I became so depressed and I was not open with my feelings with anyone really. It was a struggle.

So, when I say we are so thankful for all of you, I really mean it from my heart!

Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!!!! ❤️😘🙏🤞

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